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I'm still in serious until my face swollen and DAMN pain..go to take a nap because I can't stand it anymore..around 5 something I woke up..dear still not come back yet..sms him to ask whether the competition ends?? he said he still competing..then i return back to sleep..around 7pm i woke up..he still x come back..don't know why my heart suddenly felt like a bit sad..perhaps in this moment..what i need is his care and concern..not any kind of medicine..I'm disappointed on him..very upset right now..what can I do?? I just can wait..fine..1am..he still x come back yet..I lying on the sofa while waiting him..and thinking about our interactions today..not much..he even no sms me..I can't control my tears to drop sad..i keep crying and crying..I hate the moment of waiting someone..I dun like to be alone..I felt so lonely..I hope my dear are accompanying me right now..sorry dear..I so selfish..I know you are in the competition..but I really felt so head so pain..want burst already..when i walk I feel like faint..this whole day I never had a proper appetite and moody..when I saw food feel like vomit..even teethes also pain..I can't chew any food..just drink some oats to"isi perut"..suddenly..i lost all my confidence on you..and myself too..I'm not pretty sure that you are still care for me?? or  just I think too much on it?? should i put all this away and go to sleep?? my heart is broken..heartache is what i feeling now..maybe i should take it easy to prevent any argument happens? that is not what i hope to see.. I still waiting you dear..are you coming back?? almost 14 hours not meet you..miss you so much..but I'm not sure that do you miss me too?? while writing this post i keep you know my feelings?? we had been together for 4 months,but we seems to be together for quite a long time you feel it?? every morning when I wake up i can see your face..your sleeping pattern..right in front of cute..this is my beloved are my MR.RIGHT is it?? tell me you are please..I love you so much..dear..don't ever make me sad again can??